"You Look Great"

I highly dislike people trying to compliment my looks by saying "You look great, how much weight did you lose?" Shoot me. I do want to be skinny, I do want people to notice my efforts and when they do it is a good thing, but I don't take the above statement as a compliment when someone says you look much better, then want to know to what extent you have actually shrunk. UGH. It makes me feel a bit inferior and my work less than acceptable.

So, on the days that I don't want to make dinner for the little old man, I don't want to do anything. I feel for those wives from the 50s and before, who were dedicated to making dinner every night for their leave- it-to-beaver families. They catered for 25 years or more to a family of four (equally distributed genders), but no one tells you what they did after they got sick of cooking. Now that my time to be the wife has come around, I have at least one night per week where I do not want to cook and I have only been going for two years. Where did the longevity, persistance and patience go?!  The last person to do this was my Nan. She cooked and cleaned for 5 to 10 people every night for 25 years and finally decided it was not her responsibility anymore once she was too frail to continue on. She will still cook for her little family of two in her little apartment by the lake on her good days. I have a great respect and thankfullness for generosity, time and care for all the years I was a part of her breakfast, lunch and dinner because that shaped my want and ability to do my six days per week now. Perhaps I need more people to cook for.

Edy's Fat Free Frozen Yogurt

Well, the darned stuff isn't as bad as it sounds. I certainly cannot just eat a half cup and call it a day, though. That's right, a serving is half of a darned cup! A serving of most other things is the same and I just discovered this. I just discovered that I am eating for a lot of people according to these nutritional labels. My nutrition is good for a lot of people and I am still hungry! This has me thinking that 18 cents will not feed a starving child in Africa for the day. Heck, Medifast, Jenny, and Nutrisystem all want $4 per 1/4 cup of goop that is supposed to be appetizing and full of vitamins and minerals. Vitamins taste like CHIT. This is why we have them in pill form. So, kudos to the companies that sell crap in a quarter of a cup to fat people who are used to eating for two or three; $4 vs. $.18. ( and cut that 18 cents in half becuase we are talking the quarter, not half cup.)
Anyway, a year later, after gaining 40 lbs and losing about 15 of them, I am feeling FAT. That will never change. Weight gain ages you by many years. I try to work out at least 6 days a week and after four months of working out I have only lost 15 lbs and I eat that 1/4 cup that probably costs anywhere from $4 to $.50. I like to "reward" myself with things, but nail polish isn't going to cut it, nor are new clothes, because they won't be the size I want them to be. I have decided that an appropriate reward for a complete life change is a massage and body scrub/wrap. I have waited 24 years for one and I am going to get one if it kills me. Hopefully, I will die after I have the experience. :)
Let's see... over two years with the old ball and chain and the ball just gets heavier and the chain shorter. Maybe it gets longer... I guess it's all in how you want to view the situation.
I could go for some clam chowder, salad with ranch (no tomatoes) and cheddar bay biscuits from Red Lobster. Yea.... I went to the gym today, I'm going to tomorrow, and there is not a clam in my future, but a girl can dream. I dont' eat my Ritz before bed nor do I have chocolate anymore, just my fat free frozen yogurt in larger than half cup doses.